We'll see..

With regards to my previous blog (missing home), i've mentioned this:

"then when i've cried it all out, i'll stand up, take one last look around.. and leave. with that, i know i can really start anew."

you know what? i'm not really that sure about this, we'll see. i can't say i hope so coz right now i know deep inside (despite my jellyfishing ways) that i'm not hooking up with someone because i still don't know what will happen when we see each other again.

i know he's happy (and i'm happy for him) and that i know for a fact that we're over.. but my decision will be based on how things will turn out on that faithful december day..

my decision will only be either:

go ahead with my life and welcome what exciting stuffs it has to offer (hopefully in a foreign land hehe.. spain?! lol) and maybe marry any of my gay bestfriends in the US, lol..

OR

go ahead with my life and look forward to the day when our paths will cross again (but while that bend on the road seems a little far off, i'll enjoy the scenery around me in the meantime, lol!)

see? life's good.. whatever path i choose, i know there's still reasons to smile at the end..

but in the meantime, while december is like 6 months away, i think i'll go jellyfishing hehe.. (and shopping for pasalubongs nga pala! lol)..

**thought for the day from schmuck: "every morning i ask myself" (yup that's it.. lol.. weird no?)